“Lord, Sustain me. Help me. Get me through this. I can’t do it alone. Thank you.”
A prayer I prayed more times in this season of my life than ever before. Because many days it would have been easier to say no.
On the 40th day, I walked into the tomato greenhouse. When the parent vision trip was canceled. When three of my teammates left within a week. When I started throwing up at 3 am. On the roof. When I was on the fifth hour of hiking Acatenango. When I woke up depressed. Or homesick. Or flat-out angry.
No would have been easier. No would have been simpler. But yes was beautiful. Yes gave me more than I could have ever imagined. Yes made it possible for me to look back at those moments and smile.
I cherish each of those hard moments. Each of the moments when I wanted to quit but didn’t.Because God had so much more in store for me.
Now I can say I have twenty-something best friends who mean the world to me. I have family in Guatemala. And Ecuador. And ALL over the states. I have memories that I will tell my kids. And then I will probably tell their kids too. I have seen a little girl smile when she remembers that “verde” is “green” for the first time. I have seen the Father move mountains in my life and change countless others. I have made my own tiny mark on this broken world only by the grace of God.
The list is never-ending. My yes cost me comfort but in turn, gave me life. Life filled with love. And joy. And peace. And a big, grand, beautiful, ever-growing family.
“Lord, Sustain me. Help me. Get me through this. I can’t do it alone. Thank you.”
A prayer I prayed more times than I can count. A prayer fulfilled.
Well, it will be. T-3 days until touchdown in Atlanta, GA.
Until then. Give your yes to the Lord. It’s worth it.
all my love, for what very well could be the last time,
sarah hicks
oh also p.s. just for kicks and giggles. I should probably announce (two months later) that my new team name is… drum roll please… YES!!!
